I Am Taking The Leap

I did it. I just handed over my resignation letter.  Yes, I am doing it.  I AM taking the leap.  There is no point in delaying it any further other than, of course, the never ending matter of financial liquidity.   But I’ve been dealing with this issue all my life so putting off the decision couple of months down the road will not make me any more or any less financially secure than I am today. 

So it better be now.  Never mind the fact that I still don't know where I'm exactly headed after this job.  Never mind the fact that I might be passing up opportunities on the job. 

It has to be now and I am forcing myself to make this active decision.  Before things settle down and once again, I get into this vicious cycle of comfort and security and allow myself to temporarily ignore this deep-seated feeling of discontent and desperation.

I am doing this now, while time and youth are still on my side. While I still can.  While I’m at a point in my life where I needed to feel that I am in control of things.  Who knows what sort of additional responsibilities life will slap me with tomorrow or next year, or the year after that.

And most importantly, I am doing this now because life is fragile.  We may be here, now, this very second, but may be gone the next.
   

I just hope that I will be brave enough not to take the leap and just jump from one convenient roof to another.  In the words of Chris Guillebeau, ESCAPE INTO SOMETHING --- that, I will try my best to accomplish.  How and until when, I still have to figure out.

But off I go.

“March on …. damn the torpedoes!”